“I can’t leave you. But you’re constantly leaving me. You walk away when you want, you come back when you want. Not everyone, not your friends, but you leave me. So, I’m asking you, if you don’t see a future with us. Please… please just end it because I’m in it. Put me out of my misery.”
-grey’s anatomy
…sometimes i can be so stupid.
now has a new meaning to me.
I can be such a bitch.
Not realizing the things that you were always trying to tell me. The things I should already know. It hurts to be put out this way.
Especially if I really did mean well…
I was just hoping you would feel the same way.
I guess now is the time to back off….and retreat back into the secluded walls i built for myself….
Cause now I know I am really out there…doing shit I never do
saying things I haven’t meant in a long time
more insecure than I’ve ever been
Its not safe to be here.
I realize Im not enough…and that’s ok….
its always the case
but I am worth it to someone.
You put my feet back on the ground
Did you know you brought me around
You were sweet and you were sound
You saved me
(Source: Spotify)
Comfort
You feel that you’ve reached the ultimate goal of finding that person that you can just be…you with. Whether it be wandering around the house looking like a homeless person devoid of showers for days, or playing an MMO game for hours on end while your significant other reads reviews on bathing suits in the other room. You don’t feel the need to break out the lighted candles, fancy dinners, and lovey dovey text messages.
Comfort is the sign that lets you know that the foundation you were building a relationship on is stable and sturdy…That everything you build on from that comfort is what forms your relationship into something that can last.
Boredom
Suddenly, you’re just not trying at all.
There’s a fine line in being able to distinguish the difference.
Me? I like reading reviews =]
“was i better then?
am i better than the person you once met? sorry for the questions so late at night. I usually don’t have the time to sit and write these things down.
or to listen and just talk about these kind of things with you
funny how a few thoughts can keep a mind up past 2.
i mean you weren’t the you i first knew, and i don’t think Im that same person you met either.
see in the process of getting to know
i put up enough of a front for you to stay interested. I hoped. we were both just saying things that rang sweet in the ear and cramped smiles to our faces…. laughed into the pillows at night over the phone for hours when we really had nothing to say but goodnight…and i missed you
like the days were sparse and seeing each other was like catching the sight of a shooting star….and even then we still went on wishing even after our moment had passed.
point is….
Im not the same person I was when I first met you. However I think that’s a good thing.
Cause before I had real problems knowing how to handle my own emotions…..and people have been hurt in that. I let myself down in that.
Now I feel like to keep you around I find myself wanting to be someone else. Someone I like.
so thanks.”
